Stripey Spots

I can spot potential a few seconds before it/he/she knows its/their potential and my natural inclination is to push, to force it, to mould it into what i want it to be, forgetting that I have potential that something or someone else might like to push, to force or to mould. The effect is obviously conflict, i'm fighting to shape something or someone and it's/their fighting to shape me.

So i figured I would fight to shape US... ... So for example instead of dictating how i would like my films to be, I'd consider what my films want or need of me so that we'd both be successful. how could that not be a good plan? So apparently, not a good plan. Somethings or some people know the potential but they don't want to be pushed, or forced, neither do they/does it want to push or force me. It's not a passive thing either, there is an immense amount of trust and energy and activity that goes into leaving things as they are.

I have to trust fate and I can't stand/hate fate, we're not friends, because it takes away all my control and considers none of my aspirations. I don't think fate cares about me, which is ridiculously childish of me to say. It's not my parent, why should it? well, other than that its the officializing stamp on my life... why should it? Fate can see the strips and the spots and keeps them separate. But i want strippy spots!!!