I'm learning.... karma keeps drawing in circles,
............every time I disappoint someone, someone disappoints me.
It's not a difficult concept to understand. I know this ...but like a cow to slaughter, I keep walking into the same walls. I'm disappointed in myself for being disappointing. It's awfully disappointing to be disappointing. There's nothing like that feeling. Anger is easier, it yells loudly, passes and moves away. Disappointment lingers. Disappointment is definitely a whisper.
............every time I disappoint someone, someone disappoints me.
It's not a difficult concept to understand. I know this ...but like a cow to slaughter, I keep walking into the same walls. I'm disappointed in myself for being disappointing. It's awfully disappointing to be disappointing. There's nothing like that feeling. Anger is easier, it yells loudly, passes and moves away. Disappointment lingers. Disappointment is definitely a whisper.
Why do I disappoint people? It's not something I want to do, there's no temptation, no rewards. I think i think i can get away with it, without them knowing I've been disappointing.. Because the realisation only ever comes after the fact. I think I'm invincible... I'm one of those idiots who thinks, in the far corner of the back of my mind that i'll never get an STD or die doing something horribly dangerous... I'll probably be disappointed in that case.
23/09/07
23/09/07
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