More than a fan

Last night, I completely lost my mind. I was a mad woman driven into a disease-ridden, panicked-hysteria - body-sweating, heated and weak, like a dying-petal, grasping for its last breath. I was knee-bent, hugging the toilet bowl, purging the ugly nausea out of me. Nothing would calm me, nothing seemed to help. Overwhelming amounts of vomit just kept coming and the pain in my stomach seemed to increase with each hurl.

An hour, two hours... I slowly drifted into a lull, hot water bottle in front, and lovely boyfriend holding me from behind. I've never felt so warm and calm and just loved, vomit ridden or not. And then the symphony began...

There's a lot of things I'm not sure about in my current relationship and somehow, I'm instantly comforted by this line "Sometimes it lasts in love and sometimes it hurts instead". It's not anything profound, or anything I didn't know, but somehow there's hope: either it ends, and it hurts, either it lasts, and we stay in love, and loved. I would go far as to disagree with Miss Adele and say... Sometimes it hurts and then lasts... No? Well, still I'm more than a fan... her lyrics and voice always directly translate to me.


I heard
That you're settled down
That you
Found a girl
And you're
Married now

I heard
That your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things
I didn't give to you

Old friend
Why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back
Or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead."
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead,
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday
It was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise
Of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known
How bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead"

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead"

Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead