they won't fit, but they'll live here

As I've been fighting with silly clothes that won't fit in my bag... I've also been fighting the leaving emotions. I wasn't really planning to do a big goodbye thing. I don't enjoy them and find them completely unnnecessary, given skype, msn, facebook, gmail chat, yahoo-chat, aol, text messaging, blackberry messaging, phone calls & phone cards... there's no need. But my friends always think otherwise. I wonder how I have any actually, I'm quite a loner, never make plans, always wait for the invite - (note to self:change that), but somehow, I'm always out, always sociallising, always included, always have a plan. I'm grateful... but also stunned

I've got 5 plane books, 3 bags of plane sweets, pretty little cards, rings, bracelets... everyone said goodbye with a gift... "something small..." because I complained about the packing so much. Wasn't expecting anything but a nice warm hug, and I got tears, floods on one occassion. I was confused, overwhelmed... and God knows, if you're going to cry, I'm going to cry with you.

Me: "I'm really not going anywhere though, I'm right here... I'm always right here"

I can carry the image of the tears with me, but the words in cards, mean so much more... so before I have no choice but to tear them, trash them...

May life bring with it promise, joy,
May you break away from the simple and ordinary,
May you be all that you were meant to be,
May you know opportunity and flourish in time
Keep shining

(From Miss Spaghetti)

I can't believe I'm writing you a leaving letter. You're truly are a beautiful spirit and getting to you over the past few years has been a blessing. I pray that God will bless you in everything you put your hands to. I pray you find favour wherever you go. I know tis is not goodbye, but more like "see you later" Lots of love.

(From Miss Nigellica)


I love you! I truly do. It is such a pleasure to have you in my life and although it's bittersweet seeing you leave, I'm so happy that you are pursuing your dreams. I know you are going to achieve all of your hearts desires and so much more. So this is not goodbye, but see you later. See you when you're that hugely successful producer/director/all round TV person! :-) See you when you have the house, the kids and the gorgeous 6"4 (lol, she knows me too well) husband! I'm so excited to see what God has planned for you and I'm honoured to be a part of your life.

(From Miss Chicken George)


I really want to be the person they see in me. Honoured & Blessed