what have you done now? nothing new. I love her to death for confronting you, she was so brave and loyal to take on my battle. And you deserved it. You have never been ignorant of the fact that I loved you, regardless of your feelings or lack of... as a decent human being which I know you are, don't you think there should be some delicacy involved when dealing with me?
You're so unstable - let's just look at this year
in january - you don't love me
in february - you're calling me
in march - you stop calling me - but wish me happy birthday
in april - you're sending me poems/requests
now we're in may.... who knows... but im sure you'll pick me up again to throw me away.
Point is, i'm so hurt I can barely function... you are NOT ignorant to the fact that I have tried to leave you alone completely - deleted from facebook, msn, i don't have any phone numbers and i didn't have any e-mail ads...I didn't trip/shout/yell/ask for explanation - i just wanted to leave you be and to try and get over it.... and while we're not communicating the way we used to, and things like poems/requests/anything of the sort may not be a big deal to you - they are huge to me. They hurt me - Don't you get that? It's almost as if you're rubbing my face in your rejection of me or you just don't want me to get over you - both of which make no sense unless if you really are that cruel/selfish. You're not, but you're playing games because as soon as I think you're gone long enough for me to breathe you out of my system, you and all the songs, and words, and conversations - you do something really small - unintentional or not, that puts me back right at square one. Do you know that?
I can hear you thinking - not my problem - I get that, fine - but don't act innocent or surprised when one of my friends, who sees how devastated I am everyday, tries to attach blame to the problem. I am responsible for my own feelings, but at any point, you could have just said - this is just a game, and you'd be completely in the clear. You chose to be completely unstable with my heart in your hands for 3 years - so you get some of the blame for all the hurt I'm feeling.
And really, given all the pretty pics and shenanigans, your life looks perfect, so a little two-minute unpleasantness in a club, 'on my behalf' is certainly something you can handle. Miss Apples is definitely playing for my team, but she cares about both of us - it wasn't meant to "attack" you, it was meant to protect me.
You're so unstable - let's just look at this year
in january - you don't love me
in february - you're calling me
in march - you stop calling me - but wish me happy birthday
in april - you're sending me poems/requests
now we're in may.... who knows... but im sure you'll pick me up again to throw me away.
Point is, i'm so hurt I can barely function... you are NOT ignorant to the fact that I have tried to leave you alone completely - deleted from facebook, msn, i don't have any phone numbers and i didn't have any e-mail ads...I didn't trip/shout/yell/ask for explanation - i just wanted to leave you be and to try and get over it.... and while we're not communicating the way we used to, and things like poems/requests/anything of the sort may not be a big deal to you - they are huge to me. They hurt me - Don't you get that? It's almost as if you're rubbing my face in your rejection of me or you just don't want me to get over you - both of which make no sense unless if you really are that cruel/selfish. You're not, but you're playing games because as soon as I think you're gone long enough for me to breathe you out of my system, you and all the songs, and words, and conversations - you do something really small - unintentional or not, that puts me back right at square one. Do you know that?
I can hear you thinking - not my problem - I get that, fine - but don't act innocent or surprised when one of my friends, who sees how devastated I am everyday, tries to attach blame to the problem. I am responsible for my own feelings, but at any point, you could have just said - this is just a game, and you'd be completely in the clear. You chose to be completely unstable with my heart in your hands for 3 years - so you get some of the blame for all the hurt I'm feeling.
And really, given all the pretty pics and shenanigans, your life looks perfect, so a little two-minute unpleasantness in a club, 'on my behalf' is certainly something you can handle. Miss Apples is definitely playing for my team, but she cares about both of us - it wasn't meant to "attack" you, it was meant to protect me.
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